Life. is so huge. So much to live, So much to do, Know, Understand.
Ever since we are born, we have milestones, of growth, standards that asses us to be compatible to the world we need to accommodate ourselves in. We have schools, subjects taught to us, to be profound at something we imbibe, that would later create a sole identity for us .
We meet people to learn from, paving us a path of influence. we achieve at various a level to carve our own destiny, we make our life unique as a choice we made, to survive.
Where do we stand.
when do we know we have satiated growth. Never ?
When we start feeling age take over ? skin wrinkling, mind numbing, choosing solitude over rave parties. lounging over thoughts than chasing the randomness around us.
When we hit the rock bottom ? or the high of life.
Money.
Materialistic wants.
Power.
Achievement.
Love, companionship, making life out of passion.
Content in orgasmic scale.
Feeling the lowest and highest notes of music.
Finding a higher consciousness.
???!!
The deal is..
we have to Understand the beginning to understand how it ends all.
that we are all products of creation amidst utter chaos.
Death might complete us, in a notion.
The last chapter, but that wont be the END. Its never complete. What abt the legends that passed away. They remain as history. A story. And they will be forever.
There is no end.
Friends are remembered.
Family is revered.
Love eternal,
and
memories cherished.
I Looked to find 'my' last chapter, hoping there would never be an epilogue. A memory. An ending that would complete me. i tried to find what completes me. In Everything. Every single notch among millions, on a golf ball of life. A bite of cheese in each slice of a pizza
Like chasing mirages on every dune of sand on a desert vast,
making my own perceptional compliments of my predicaments,
just as such.. finding none.
Diluted in mistakes, hurt, guilt and every possible shade of grey in a rainbow of emotions, I held on to hope. Held on close. Wishing for forgiveness. Wishing for redemption and penance.
Strength to have a soul. To contain myself.
Anyone would survive. I wanted to sustain.
Right my wrong. Make amends and learn.
All that mattered to me was eventuality, the continuity of life with a pinch of better and a slice of smile.
A smile that i could share.
But.
Ma bro once said, Long before I knew or cud comprehend what were, the biggest flaws in life were 'if' and 'but' ..
Makes sense now.
Possibilities.
One cant imagine how much, we live in possibilities.
They don't complete us.
Because we are human, and to accept that, is of a level of understanding and comprehension beyond.
To feel complete is a Choice.
Everyday, every moment. Its right there with us. To accept what makes us. We are so blind to it. I am so blind to it, that though i had every single moment, possibility and chance, I chose different.
Its not the regret that bothers me. its what has become of that moment.
We as humans evolve, and that is our biggest strength and flaw.
Constantly, at a pace our own life defines, we evolve.
Expecting a feeling of completion stays with us in every moment as a choice.
The feeling of emptiness may pertain to a past tense of remnants we churn in thought, so strong, that we all eventually fail to accept the inevitable.
The Present.
What we have. Acceptance of the perimeter of circle around us.
THAT is what completes us.
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